Don't Let the fear of striking out keep you from finishing the game!!!!!

It starts.......

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 22:51:39 GMT

Well I started school today I am so excited about it. I am happy about the choice i have made so far. I learned how to shampoo hair right and I never knew I would love it so much. It was a good time. thats all for now.

One week

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 00:33:38 GMT

well one week till school starts I am so excited about it. I don't think I like the fact that I have to get up at 7am everyday but I know I will love it.

I have had an awesome couple of weeks home and not having to worrie about anything but now I am so ready to go to work and school but I have not found a job yet man it sucks looking for a job.

I went jet skiing yesterday and fell off into the frezzing water man it was cold and now i think i am getting sick but o well it was fun. Friday night chrissy got a new tattoo she said it hurt like a bitch but thats the price u have to pay. then we went to jessie blacks it is a hick club we went to see the truck show we had her Boyfriend, justin, robert,stephanie and edwin we all had a good time i think but now we all want to learn to line dance. I love the friends I have and sometime we fight but o well thats how it goes. I can't wait till I have a chance to go see everyone in tampa but I need a job so i have money to go down there it sucks not having money. O well. That is my life right now it is borning but o well.

A lot has changed

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 19:31:33 GMT

Well a lot has changed from the time i have left for christmas break!!!! I have decided that I am not returning back to Florida College and I am not going to college anymore. I have decided to go to cosmetology school and I am so excited about it. I have wanted to do this for the longest time. My family just wanted me to try to go to college for a time and I found out that it just isn't for me at all. I am hoping that I will be happy with what i am doing and not be making another mistake.

I am also back at home and it is ok I do miss being out on my own and not having parents down my back about everything, but I have it ok here and at least i don't have to pay rent. How has everyone else being doing? I miss you all.

One more week....

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 04:33:54 GMT

Finaly it has come one more week of classes.....I though this day would never come. I may not of done as well as i wanted to but I am hoping that it will get better bc/ now i know what to do and how to study i just learned it a little to late for this semester. For once in my life i am doing great in math and bad in everything else. Why can't i win?

I can't wait till i am home for 3 weeks yea i am working and making some money then going to hang out with all the people i miss and maybe even see some old friends that i have not seen in like 5mt. I hope my break is fun and also hope that i will have fun.

I also hope that if you are like me and going home for break have fun also. I love you all!!!!!!

My Heart is.......

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 03:24:12 GMT

Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.
You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.

Your flirting style: Friendly

Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe

Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish

What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Back at school......

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 23:24:41 GMT

Back at school and man it is kinda a relief. I loved being home and seeing all my friends. It was a great week home.

Only 2.5 weeks till school is out for the semester. Then I am home again for 3 weeks. I am happy bc/ I am working and will finally have a little money.

Well tuesday on the way home it only took a little less than an hour and a half. Wed. I went out to see christina and then justin, went to dinner with my parents, and then went to My friend Ashleys husband coming home party he got back from Iraq. We had a fun time partying.

Then thursday went to my grandparents and had you guessed it turkey. Friday didn't do much put the christmans tree up then went to justins and watched house of wax again then went out to a movie later that night. Saw yours mine and ours...it made me cry but it was good.

Saturday went to a suprise party for my friend chalupa. It was at the beach....who else can go to the beach on thanksgiving but people in Florida. We had a lot of fun then most of us went back to my house and watched house of wax yet again but I love that movie. Sunday got up and went shopping with my other grandparents for christmas stuff. It was a good time at home. I miss it but I also love being here at school the freedom and the fun that we get to have.

4 days....

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 21:31:18 GMT

4 days till I go home for 5 days. I am so excited to go home for thanksgiving break. I need some time off of school and to be home with my family, friends and animals. I am hoping to get a lot of freind time in or just to have some fun with some of them. Going out partying and movies is what I love about my friends, plus how could i forget the drama tht come with them all.

This weekend is going to be busy, school play that i am gonna go see tonight, lock in with my society and then tomorrow sleep and papers. Sunday Will be a day of rest hopefully but I will probably do some paper work and study for my bible test.

I hope everyone has a great weekend and a thanksgiving. I will write when i get back from thanks giving.

Sometimes......

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 03:18:31 GMT

Sometimes going home isn't always good......
Sometimes going home is great......
Sometimes you just need to get some lovin......
Sometimes you just need to be alone......

There are many reasons why I love my home so much and why I don't. I went home this past weekend and it was a long needed trip. It was about 4 mt. since the last time I went home and I was so happy when we finally got there. I brought my friend Megan and she loved meeting my friend she like some more than others but most liked. Friday night we went off roading in Justin's truck and had so much fun that is one reason i miss home is the stupid stuff that we do on a friday night. Saturday we went to the fair and had so much fun on all of the rides. Sunday we went to church and then to her house and had fun also.

I loved seeing all of my friends at home but it also makes me happy to know that I am not stuck in the same routine, it is nice not to have to ask about anything or worrie about what time i have to be home and stuff like that. I miss everyone at home and I will be back for a week in a week. I need this break from school it is starting to get so stressful. I also can't wait till christmas break either.

If you have a sometimes that you would like to share don't be afraid to also.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 23:22:50 GMT

Okay..Pick your Birthmonth:

you're a..

january- talented
febuary- lowlife
march- immature
apil- wild
may- exciting
june- weird
july- selfish
august- hot
september- scary
october- messed up
november- cool
december-sexy

now pick the color shirt you have on

pink- cupcake sales person
blue- hooker
red- bartender
green- Celebrity
purple- Mc Donalds worker
white- slut
yellow- taxi driver
black- chef
orange- homeless
gray- stipper
no shirt- millionare
other- toe nail clipper

LAST...the day you were born

1- that loves food
2- that hates kids
3- that needs attention
4- that is a murderer
5- who sucks at reading
6- who strips to pay for bills
7- who kills kids
8- who goes to dunkin donuts everyday
9- that loves laguna beach
10- that is OCD with something
11- that is cheating on someone for $$
12- who never brushes their hair
13- who licks peoples toes
14- who is a gold digger $$
15- that wants to be in love
16- who is secretly bi
17- that is a whore
18- who is anorexic
19- that wants someone they cant have
20- that owns two chinese fighting fish
21- that wants to have chinese food
22- that is obsessed with myspace
23- who loves cats
24- who wants sex
25- who is a bookworm
26- who will never have sex
27- who is a drug addict
28- who will live to be 121
29- who takes naked pictures of themselves
30- who will stay in the same place forever
31- who needs to brush their teeth

I am A Selfish stripper who is cheating on someone for $......Have fun with it. Thanks D

Saturday

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 18:45:51 GMT

For once on a saturday in a month i got up at 11 and not 2 in the afternoon. Now i am so bord. Tonight is gonna be a blast clubbing o yea. Last night I went and saw The legand of Zoro it was good and then T.G.I Fridays that was fun. It is nice to have weekends back again. I get to see my parents tomorrow I am so excited. Then i get to go home next weekend that is even better. I hate having to worrie about money and I am I just wish I had money and didn't have to even think about how much i can spend. O well it will be better when i get a job next semester. That is all that has been going on in my head have a great weekend.

Long time!!!!!!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 04:59:25 GMT

Hey you all,
I have decided to start writing in here again. Well for the month of October I worked at Howl-o-scream!!! I had a great time and I will defentally go back next year if i am still here. I made some good freinds and meet some intresting people. Also I had so much fun scaring people.

Next, I have been doing ok at school I have started to make a lot of new friends and have a ton of fun with my Society GO OMEGA!!!!! School is so fun to be at and I am happy that i made the choice to come here and get out of community college.

On sunday my Best friends came to visit me!!!! They supprised me and I was so thrilled. We went to the mall and go some food and just shoped and chated, because i had to go to work.

Nothing to report in the guy department except that you never know a guy that well and don't forget it!!!!

Long time nothing......

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 20:01:18 GMT

well i finally got my computer set up and my internet working so yea!!!!! I am at school and it is going good i still don't have many friends but that will start to change. College is so different than going to the community one at home. I love being in a dorm and not haveing to ask when i want to do something. I have 5 classes and I am done by 2:40 every day. That is nice but it does get a little borning here. The food isn't that great but at least i have food. Sometimes it is good, but we have had fast food a lot. lol
I don't have much more to talk about yet but I am mad i can't get on my space bc/ the school is christian and that site isn't censored so they block it. err so i hope you leave me messages here and not there anymore.

I have a lot on my mind....

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 22:09:25 GMT

Man a lot is going on. In about 12 days I am leaving for college and I can't believe that I am doing it. I never thought I would make it there or the day would come. I have been saying good-bye to all of my friends from youth group and it makes me sad to say good-bye even though i know i am gonna visit but it won't be the same. I have made some great freindships in my youth group over the last 5 years and I am sad to see it come to an end. I know I will always be a F.R.O.G but it still feels weird to say good-bye. 2 of my best freinds can't belive that it is coming to an end but they are happy that I am finally getting out of Deltona I am 2. Everything is coming into play i have almost everything i need for school and I am starting to see that I should of saved a lot more of my money but o well what can you do.

This is my last week of work and It is making me even more sad, bc/ i have watched the youngest grow up he is almost 3 and i started he when he was about 7 mt. So it is gonna be hard to say good bye, I am also happy that i am gonna move on 2.

Enough of that stuff, The past couple of weeks have been great and I had a great ending to the good summer. After workcamp which was so great, We had a youth group party at The Porta's House and it was a tone of fun. That was the end to most peoples summer but not mine i have 12 days. I am hoping to go to the parliment house one last time and hang out with some special people :) Well that is all I have for now thanks for reading it. I love you all later people.

A long time.....

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 16:14:20 GMT

Man it has been a while, thats bc/ i was in St. Louis with catholic heart workcamp. I had so much fun I can't describe what happens there you just need to experience it. That all I have to say I will write more someother time.

F.R.O.G.........

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 14:28:39 GMT

If you don't know what F.R.O.G is then don't worrie it is my youth group. I think of them as more like a family, most of the poeple in there may be weird but i love them all. Yesterday our youth leader took us all to St. Augestien, for a day trip that was fun, man it sucks when your youth leader has noone to walk arround with so you walk with her and listen to her say how everyone doesn't like her but o well i didn't care she isn't that bad to hang with. Stephanie and I were with michelle the whole time at the old town, so we got to pick what we did next we decided to go to the out-let malls, man we spent some money. (lots of it) We had fun anyway, we couldn't decided where to eat so michelle picked cracker barrel it was fine by me but some people we not happy but o well. After dinner a couple of us were out side and billy and chulpa decided to have a race bc/ they both are slow and at the end billy pushed chulpa and he fliped over the bushes :) it was so funny. Then our trip was over we got home and a lot of people we to stephanies house to play poker i was 2 tired to go bc/ i also had to get up for work so i said screw it and we home. That was about all that happen on my friday.

p.sI am happy the parliment house again on sunday after church yea!!!! This time Stephanie is comming yea.

Great Times!!!

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 17:16:17 GMT

Well my Birthday weekend was great lets start with....

Well I started the day with work and man that sucks but o well after work i wanted to go to a movie with everyone and just hang and have a good time. I was watching my aunts house so i let the dog out and went to my house to hang with my mom to wait for the satilight guy he got there at like 7 and she wouldn't let my brother and i go out till he left so he finially finished at like 9:30 so we headed to justins to hang bc/ everyone was there we had a great time i love my people. :)

Sunday i got to sleep finially and after i woke up i cleaned my aunts house bc/ they were comming home and then i went home to hang. I didn't go to church bc/ i had already made plans with my best friend chrissy to go out for my birthday. We went to the parliment house bc/ it is just a fun time, we saw a good show and danced for a little great times.

Well it was finally my birthday and i didn't know what i was going to do, chrissy wanted to go out and she was going to find ashley so she went to her house and got her, yea we have ashley. We decied to go to a movie Dark Water man that was a little dumb but o well. Before the movie my aunt came over and had cake and ice cream with us i got my gifts from everyone chrissy got my a cd player stero and alarm clock for my door room that was nice, what ashley got my will remain name less justin got me gift cards and my mom got me clothes. On the way to the movie the guy driving in front of me was having road rage with another car and so i tried to get arround them and when i did i didn't see the cop a few cars back and before i knew it he was pulling me over. Errrrr on my b-day he walked to my window and said do you know how fast you were going and i said honstly i did not he said you know what we call that in deltona halling ass, lol, o well he didn't even ask for my liscens so i got off yea. well that was a good weekend:)

Dinner and a Movie

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 18:36:07 GMT

Well yesterday was good. I wasn't expecting much I didn't really want to go to city walk with the youth group but i got forced 2 bc/ i got out of work earily and had no excuse. I am glad I went we had fun. I saw batman begins it was good. Dinner was great but i didn't finish it all, i had a lot more fun than i thought i would.

When we got home i am staying at my aunts house to house sit for her and i thgouht i left the key in my car and when i got to her house i could find the key any wear but i knew that it was there somewhere, but i searched but could not find it bc/ it was so dark. So i got a screw driver and tired to get in throught the back doors, and ended up breaking both of the locks man that sucks. So i leave for work today and find the key stuck under my seat man i am dumb. Well now i have to replace the lock to her doors before she gets home good thing i have till sunday.

Almost my b-day yea:)

Weekend +

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 18:31:45 GMT

Well this weekend was good and fun. I got to go shoping with my mom and get a big supply of clothes for school but they are for my birthday. Then the next day we went shoping again and my mom got her side tables that was fun shoping all weekend with my mom.

Each day that I went shoping I also went jet skiing sunday night we went and it was cool bc/ when the sun went down there were lots of fire works. Then I went to Justins for the 4th and we were our on the lake again skiing and boating. They made ribs thoes were great yum:)

only six days left till my birthday I am so excited. I think we are gonna have a bone fire and swimming and maybe poker but who knows i have to see what is going on.

Why????

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 18:28:29 GMT

Why is it that you have a best friend but they don't act like it. You tell that person everything but they never tell you the truth till you find out from someone else....They are not the first to call and tell you something when it is wrong and they never are there for you so why do they always say to anyone that you are there best freind. It just bothers me that you try to be so open with them but you don't get anything in returne. I am sick of it I am so happy that i am leaving soon and can't wait to start a new life and get out of this life that has started to go so wrong. It is so hard not to cry when you think about how much you were gonna miss you friends but it gets easyer when they don't even talk to you like they use to so why should the tears come. Why should i waste my time trying to make a good friendship work when it is one way. Well i am done with it, I am at the point where i don't even want to know the shit that happens to that person and i am fine with the one good freind i have left, i like the others but i am not as close as i was with that person so i am sorry that it has gone donw hill and i hope it isn't bc/ i am going away. O well i don't know if this makes any sense but that is just how i have been feeling so i need to say something:(

What a long week and it is only wed......

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 14:19:34 GMT

Man I don't know how people do it.....Get up at 7 everyday or earily. For the past week i have been getting up at 7 to babysit, then at noon i have to go babysit for someone else i have been working 12 hr days. Man it sucks. They lady that i get up at 7 for asked me if i want to work for her the rest of the summer and I don't think i can do it, i need the money but I don't think it is worth it, and only having one day off sucks. Plus i can't go out at night bc i am 2 tired and i have to get up earily the next day it sucks. So i am not going to do anymore of it after this week. We got our sofas and other stuff yesterday it is so nice. I love living in a new house. My birthday is in a week and a half yea, I am kinda excited but it is only 19 so no big deal i will be so happy when it is 21 o yea. School is gettting closer and closer i can't wait, my mom can't believe that i am leaving it is only 2 mt away and she isn't likeing that. I hope i do well. well that is about all that has been going on in my life bc/ i have been working so much hope you all are enjoying your summer :)

Yea!!!!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 19:32:02 GMT

Just a little note I will add more on tuesday. We have youth group sunday and I am so happy i miss everyone :( The people there are so much fun and we just have a blast!!!!

Just a song....

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 14:47:15 GMT

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

I have a couple of friends that sometimes feel that way and it makes me hurt to seem then feeling like that. It also hurts when you can't do much about it but I think the biggest thing is to make them feel that you want them to be happy and that you love them.

I consider myself lucky bc/ i haven't had much loss in my life and I know some people that have had freinds kill them selfs and when someone tells me that I don't know what to say but I try to be there for them as much as I can.

To my friends that read my journal, I hope you all are happy and are not so depressed that you would consider killing your self but if you are upset I am here to talk if you need me, call me anytime.

386-717-8496

Yea!!!!

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 21:40:11 GMT

Our house is all fixed only the pool is left to get cleaned yea, I am so happy tongiht will be a good night sleep:)

What has been going on.....

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 19:17:44 GMT

Well it finally came the day that we moved into our new house. After waiting for 2 years the day came yesterday, I was so excited and after I got done with work i went home and unpacked all of my clothes and put them in my new dressers and made my bed and organized my room it is nice to have a room that is mine again. I am the only one with all of my fuiture bc/ they aren't comming till tuesday so we don't have any sofas or anything else to sit on it is kinda funny but o well. So far lots of things have gone wrong with the house. The air was having problems something happen with the pipe and it started to flod the floor so we can't use it till they come and fix it and they told us that they would get there as soon as they could but theya re very busy so who knows when they are gonna come, then the fridge is broken the part that is suppose to put water in for ice and to drink isn't working so we are waiting for them to come, also the well is having a problem, last is the pool, they have to come clean it bc/ the finished it before the power was on and got sand and lots of dirt stuck in it so they are gonna clean it. Man having a house is a pain:(

p.s Herbbie was a good movie :)

Ouch....

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:26:07 GMT

Man I am so burnt, I am from now on gonna wear sun block. I went jst skiing Friday afternoon and didn't think I would get that burnt but it hurts to move my arms up and down bc/ of my sholders. It was worth it we went tubbing off the back of the ski and man that was fun, then we just had fun on them.

After a long morning of that we put some stuff in our new house it is finally ours yea!!!!!Then I relaxed for a while till it was time to go to fun spot. We road go-karts for 3 hours but only 5 times bc/ the lines were long. We had fun anyway. On the way home we had a race on I-4 man that was a mistake, someone got in trouble not justin but I can't say who bc/ that would be mean. But the cop pulled over the wrong car that was the funny part. Then we went to eat at applebees and had desert that was cool then it was 2 so we went home.

Tomorrow is Fathers day and my dads b-day and I have not gotten anything :( o well i will go tonight. lol Hope you didn't forget your dad. What a fun friday again yea. I need to stop doing that stuff bc/ I am so broke i mean broke. o well you only live once. You can't take it to Heaven with you so you might as well spend it, thats the way I look at it.